I'm Tired

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For the past couple of weeks I've been having an abnormal amount of seizures. My medication has been moved around, but I'm still acclimating. If you know me, you know that my seizures are followed by a sharp emotional flip. Most of the seizures I've been having have been without this emotional flip, but the seizure this past Wednesday has certainly spiraled me down into a deep valley.

Tonight I made an emergency appointment with my therapist to discuss some of the bigger issues in my life with the hopes that they will trickle down to my day-to-day mood since my last seizure.

I didn't realize that my lower mood was caused by the seizure until I listened to a new record I bought last night. I sat and listened and it all became very clear to me. I've been saying to Sara and to myself that "I'm tired," which has been a warning sign, of sorts, in the past.

Last month I went to an epilepsy support group and when I left I felt energized and excited to have found people just like me. On Wednesday, after my seizure, I went to another one of these meetings and I felt lethargic and frustrated. About what, I don't know.

All I can say right now is that I'm counting the hours until I meet with my therapist so hopefully I can have some sort of emotional release. There's so much pent up energy inside of me and I don't know how to sort through it. Maybe she can help.