About Last Saturday

Last Friday and Saturday I started a new medication with the hope that it would help my restlessness. Lately, I've had this inner feeling to always be moving, even though I'm totally exhausted.

I started the medication late last week; to be honest with you, I can't remember which day because as soon as I washed the pill down I started having seizures.

It's been almost five years since my first seizure. After the doctors got them under control I had lost a week; amnesia. On Friday and Saturday, the amnesia was back. I only remember things from last week in 30 second intervals, like waking up at 4:30pm, thinking it was 4:30am and asking why my family was here and why the sun was up so early. I don't remember eating, drinking, using the bathroom, showering, or any other normal routine. This is just a case of "over-medicating," but it's deeply disturbing that a little pill the size of my fingertip can color my world black.

Day Long Seizure

Last November, I had several very strong seizures while admitted to the Mayo Clinic video-monitoring unit. One of the seizures lasted 9 minutes; to put this in perspective, it takes 5 minutes to cause brain damage.

Today I had one, long, all-day partial seizure. With this one, my personality changed, I hallucinated, heard voices, I argued with my family about trivial things.

Based on today's seizure(s) and the one last Monday the 18th when I called Sara and stood by our window, explaining in gibberish what I was seeing, (I attached below is a link to the audio voice recording I sent Sara.) it's pretty obvious that there's something wrong; something different.

(I'm heavily into the postictal state, seizure hangover, right now).

I attached a link for you to hear the voice message I left for Sara while having a seizure (could be disturbing to some):

Click: Jeremy's Seizure Voice Message