Embarrassing seizure before a friend's wedding in Madison on Saturday afternoon. It was outside at Monona Terrace in Madison. There were tables and chairs far behind where the wedding was taking place so we sat there and listened and watched from a safe distance just in case something else happened during the wedding.
This is getting ridiculous. I feel kind of trapped. I can't trust my brain enough to attend even a 30 minute wedding for the fear I'm going to have a seizure? I just hope I didn't offend the bride and groom when they saw us sitting so far away.
I took an Ativan, which is a high potency drug designed to stop more seizures and break the cycle that I usually go through, like side-effects. It worked very well and I didn't have another seizure which is rare because my seizures usually come in waves. I'll have eight over the course of two days then none for a month.
Hopefully if I go through with the VNS I'll feel confident enough to go back to a normal routine and not be afraid to sit through events (like weddings, etc) for fear of a seizure. My wedding is coming up and what a memory it would be to have a seizure on the alter. Ugh.