Right now, I'm searching for every letter on the keyboard; taking about 5-10 seconds to type each word. I'd like to mention that I'm relying heavily on spellcheck and a lot of the words I'd like to use to explain what's going on might as well be French because I'm having a hard time recognizing them.
I took a couple Ativan, which is an emergency medication. I'm feeling it absorb into my blood stream and I have to say that it's a pretty nice little high. It's a very sleepy high, but I feel warm all over and I can't really feel my feet.
I would consider the seizure strong because the whole right side of my body went numb and I'm pretty sure I lost consciousness. By that, I mean I could've been technically awake, but I'm missing a good chunk of time in my memory of the last hour or so.
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I've spent about an hour writing this post, so far, and I'm feeling a little better. I'm starting to recognize words as I type them. Note: I'm going through the first half of my post and fixing grammar errors, because I get self-conscious about that sort of thing. Vain, I know!
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I called Sara just after I realized what a phone was (no joke), and I'm pretty sure I was still having the seizure because I don't remember quite what I said to her. I remember apologizing a bunch, which I tend to do after a seizure. My face feels puffy, so I know I had a good cry. I know that may sound weird to not remember whether or not I had such an emotional moment but that's sometimes what happens for me after or just at the end of a seizure. Especially as bad as the one I'm recovering from.
I know I'm going to look back on this post later today and not remember writing this so I want to document as much as I can while I'm still in the posticle phase (seizure hangover).
I want to thank everyone who reads this blog and I want everyone to know that I appreciate their support. Without being able to write this for all of you to read would be devastating to me.
Crying again, dammit.
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