Well Beyond Beaten Down

I just keep falling. Sara is all I really have. Don't get me wrong, I'm the most grateful fiancé there could be, it's just very turn in life has been painful. This week I had eight seizures, spent time in the hospital, I've been having horrible nightmares to the point where I wake Sara up so she can confirm that I'm awake. Most recently my job is falling apart. I'm hourly now which most likely means less money, I even had a verbal scuffle about the situation with my boss. I don't know how things are going to work. I just can't seem to find a place to climb.