Friday, June 25, 2010

Western Sunrise

After the string of seizures last week a funny thing happened in the days following. I'm unfamiliar with my home, work, neighborhood... I know where everything is but it's like I moved to a new city. The sun seems like it's in the wrong place or something. It's really hard to explain.

The last time this happened was when I had my seizures for the first time. I didn't even recognize what a computer screen looked like... I had to "relearn" all of my computer programs. I walked around my office, knowing I worked there, knowing where the break area was but when I found it, it looked as though someone remodeled it. I knew where my office was but it looked like someone had moved the furniture around.

This is kind of how this week has been. The sun has been coming in windows in a way that I'm unfamiliar with what time of day it is. Waking up feeling like it was 4pm. The sunset feels more like what I think the sunrise should look like.

I've read a little about how a seizure can play with your mind like this, and because I experienced eight in a short amount of time, it's possible that I'm thrown off. I just wish I could better describe how this feels. I wish I was a born writer and could relax at a computer and put into words a better picture for you how it feels to wake up in a "new" room and be able to study the faces of friends and family in a way a stranger might. To basically have the sun rise from the west.

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