Sara and I went to see my psychiatrist this week, and I'm now weening myself off of Abilify. The doctor prescribed Geodon, which is supposed to have less "weight" issues, and since Thursday, I've noticed that a lot of my psychological side effects of my seizure medication has subsided. Thankfully.
I had four seizures this week, the most recent being on Saturday afternoon. Sara was in Milwaukee visiting a friend, and when I called her, the first sentence out of her mouth was, "Are you the good Jeremy, still?"
Since last Sunday's very strong seizure, I was waiting for the other seizures to come so they would knock me back into my "good" state. They came... three times! I've never been so excited to have a seizure since I knew I'd have less of the anger and anxiety issues that I was having while in the interictal state.
After some research, I've found that Geodon causes severe sleepiness, or somnolence, as they call it. I've been taking it in the mornings and have noticed that I start to feel light and a bit euphoric, then I want to sleep. And when this sleep comes, it comes with a vengeance! I slept nearly all day on Saturday, and now I'm writing this in the wee hours of Sunday morning.
I'm going to slowly switch the intake time to the late evenings, so I just took the Geodon and half of Abilify. Right now, I can feel my hands getting light and it's getting easier for me to type, as I have less and less "noise" running around in my head.
Right now everything is clear, and I feel a sort of stoned clarity.